{"id":3850,"date":"2019-07-09T10:04:12","date_gmt":"2019-07-09T10:04:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/drewfrederic.com\/?p=3850"},"modified":"2023-06-23T22:21:55","modified_gmt":"2023-06-23T22:21:55","slug":"just-this-one-time","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/drewfrederic.com\/?p=3850","title":{"rendered":"Just This One Time"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-medium\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"182\" height=\"300\" data-attachment-id=\"3851\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/drewfrederic.com\/?attachment_id=3851\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/drewfrederic.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/07\/D949DB5F-31EE-4EC0-A33F-AE4F64C44AC0.jpeg?fit=908%2C1500&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"908,1500\" data-comments-opened=\"1\" 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srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/drewfrederic.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/07\/D949DB5F-31EE-4EC0-A33F-AE4F64C44AC0.jpeg?resize=182%2C300&amp;ssl=1 182w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/drewfrederic.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/07\/D949DB5F-31EE-4EC0-A33F-AE4F64C44AC0.jpeg?resize=91%2C150&amp;ssl=1 91w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/drewfrederic.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/07\/D949DB5F-31EE-4EC0-A33F-AE4F64C44AC0.jpeg?resize=768%2C1269&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/drewfrederic.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/07\/D949DB5F-31EE-4EC0-A33F-AE4F64C44AC0.jpeg?resize=620%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 620w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/drewfrederic.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/07\/D949DB5F-31EE-4EC0-A33F-AE4F64C44AC0.jpeg?w=908&amp;ssl=1 908w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 182px) 100vw, 182px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center wp-block-paragraph\">Just This One Time<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center wp-block-paragraph\">it screams my name<br>in the middle of the night<br>toss and turn<br>toss and turn<br>i awake with bags<br>and a hunger<br>i resist<br>trying to occupy my mind<br>thoughts<br>no no no no no<br>I tell myself<br>no no no no no<br>i tremble, afraid<br>the sounds are stronger<br>i resist<br>sweating<br>voices<br>just this one time<br>just this one time<br>he whispers<br>sniff sniff sniff<br>just this one time<br>the noise stops<br>the agony begins<br>i am caught<br>he whispers<br>just this one time<br>sniff<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Drew Frederic<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This is a piece of glitch art I created of an original photograph of Maxim. &nbsp;I photographed Maxim in Montreal a while back. &nbsp;It was a dream shoot and at 2:30 this morning I realized &nbsp;his piece I created was perfect for the poem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Glitch art isn&#8217;t a new medium but it is one that is being adulterated with apps for phones. &nbsp;I actually spent hours creating this final piece. &nbsp;The process involves taking a photograph and using either a music editing software and a code writing software to destroy the original pixels. &nbsp;It is a ton of trial and error and never going back to what you discard. &nbsp;It is always moving forward. &nbsp;Hoping after hours and hours and days of destroying pixels you will at last be pleased with a final piece.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I tossed and turned all night as I thought about addiction. &nbsp;I awoke at 2:30 this morning and started writing. &nbsp;These words are my final thoughts at 6:00 am.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Just This One Time it screams my namein the middle of the nighttoss and turntoss and turni awake with bagsand a hungeri resisttrying to occupy my mindthoughtsno no no no noI tell myselfno no no no noi tremble, afraidthe sounds are strongeri resistsweatingvoicesjust this one timejust this one timehe whisperssniff sniff sniffjust this one timethe<a 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